I had a very strange and vivid dream about 5 years ago. It wasn’t a normal dream, that you just wake up from. I woke up from this dream and felt like something was different and that I had to respond to the what had just happened in the caverns of my slumbering mind. Somehow, this odd dream awoke something deep inside of me. I dreamed I was playing a guitar and the sound woke all my senses like no other dream ever has before. It felt more of a peak into the future, more than anything else. Although I have been a painter and creator for many years, I have never picked up a musical instrument in my life and played it...so it seemed to come out of nowhere. When I awoke, I couldn’t shake this dream. I felt like I had to answer to it. I couldn’t let it go.
In my slumber, my eyes were opened to new horizons. The curiosity was so strong, I needed to investigate this idea further and the next day I found a guitar teacher and immediately started on this journey. After that, I was hooked. It was as though I had discovered a whole spectrum of colors to paint with that I didn’t know existed. I continued learning this new instrument, diligently, and eventually couldn’t stop there. I felt something more was brewing.
I sat in my backyard and put pen to paper and wrote the first song of my life: “Push and Shove”. Inspired by some events that seemed to mark the beginning of a new season, breaking away from the old and exploring the new, and loving it. My friendships were changing and the landscape of my life was moving from the familiar and safe, into plowing into new territory and forging new paths of creative expression.
This new season has been both exhilarating and frustrating, and some of those around me noticed a change (for better or worse in their mind, I don’t know?), but the question was asked, by a friend at lunch, “why are you doing all this, IzzI? I think she was wondering why I was working so hard, starting from scratch as a musician/songwriter, and doing this in a season where most of my peers are relaxing in their accomplishments & accolades. I thought “why not”? I don’t want to sit around and be safe with the paints and brushes I know so well, I have got to explore untrodden paths and maybe even open doors to new friendships in a world where I am an obvious student. It is an invigorating adventure to me, and I want to find others who feel the same. As I plow this new field, I will be sharing my ups and downs with a new blog world...and hope to find those who also long to be students of life and respond to their dreams!